Finding Kelly 
 
It was never meant to be this way 
But l am not going to argue 
I have so many things to say 
But I just want to run too 
 
My heart if beating so loud 
I can no longer hear you 
My god I am so proud 
So beautiful and my daughter too 
 
How can this be 
That I am here with you now 
13 years have been set free 
Tell me this is true 
Please tell me it's true 
 
Kelly I'm not finding this so easy 
But please just believe me 
Your daddy loves you 
Your daddy always loved you 
 
I just couldn't hurt you 
I didn't desert you 
The pain is still here 
And I'm so full of fear 
 
NOTE 
 
After 13yrs of waiting to be re-united with my daughter Kelly it finally happened one gorgeous summer's day without warning. In those 1st few seconds I was a mass of confusion. It was never meant to happen like that. I had plans for how it should have been. But suddenly I found myself looking at this beautiful young woman knowing that she was my daughter. I was happy,proud,scared,facinated, all at the same time. My heart was pounding. I was terrified of rejection. It was all happening so fast. All those years of pain. The nightmares, the guilt. The hope of  finding my baby and finally it's happening right before my eyes. It was an incredible roller coaster of emotions. I am just so happy the wait is finally over.